Her Tears

A sloppy copy of a song I wrote called "Her Tears".


Her Tears

Seventeen years, she's been trying so hard
For her daddy's approval, she's been playing her cards
So carefully; her honesty is taking her down,
'Cause honestly, he's never around.

(Chorus, variation)
And she cries, cries, cries, cries, cries,
Clinging to her crown,
'Cause she knows, oh boy, she knows,
He'll never know her now,
No, he'll never know her now.

Eight years ago she got along with him just fine,
but the move would take toll in just a matter of time.
Six years she'd look back and wonder what went wrong,
Between her brother and her, what went wrong?

And she cries, cries, cries, cries, cries,
To Christ, her solid ground,
And she hides, oh, yes, she hides
The bruises on her heart,
The bruises on her crown.

Seventeen's confident, eighteen's a misfit,
Looking for love, so she thought she'd try it.
Four months, a cheater; Two weeks, too honest.
Alone again with a broken promise.

And she cries, cries, cries, cries, cries,
Her failures written in red,
And she tries, tries, oh, she tries
To stand back up again,
Put her crown back on her head.

She called him "best friend," without a doubt.
Trustworthy, loving, she couldn't do without.
The call came fast, the moving trucks pulled up;
Six years and their time was up.

And she cries, cries, cries, cries, cries,
More lonely than before,
And she seeks, Oh, God, she seeks
The Christ she knew before,
Where's the Christ she knew before?

She was twenty and single, halfway through school,
The call came cutting through the autumn cool.
He'd been running alone, his face was red,
Before anybody knew it, he was dead.

And she cries, cries, cries, cries, cries,
Beating on her father's grave,
And she screams, "Dear God!" She screams;
Flings her crown among the dead,
God's silent as the dead.

He's twenty-eight with an engagement ring,
His beautiful bride like the daughter of a king.
The light in his eyes as if all wrong was right,
She'd never seen such a beautiful sight.

And she cries, cries, cries, cries, cries,
With a bittersweet smile.
And with joy, joy, she lets go
Of her happy brother dear,
Wishing daddy could be here.

She'd known him for years and never thought twice.
He'd found her crown again and gave a word of advice,
"I'll hold it for you, so you won't hurt again,
and you can have my heart instead."

She didn't think twice and she didn't look back,
while he cleaned up and polished the crown that she lacked.
One day he set it gently upon her head,
Then he knelt before her and said,

"Marry me
I know your past, so don't look back.
Marry me
You have my heart, so keep it, please, and I promise you

Whatever we go through,
Whatever comes at you,
Whatever brings you down,
I'll always be around,

So please, please, please, please, please,
Under God who hears and sees...
Marry me."

And she cries, cries, cries, cries, cries,
With his ring upon her hand,
And she smiles, that gorgeous smile,
That God wanted her to know,
He always wanted her to know.


(End)


Of course, it's up for interpretation, but it was written as an exaggerated account of the events that cause tears in a girl's life. You'll notice the characters are all the men in her life, which I used as a theme leading to the last verse.

Some other symbols include the crown, which is supposed to represent her confidence, her sense of self. Through each situation, her crown begins with her clinging to it tightly, then it is bruised, tarnished, lost, thrown away, et cetera, to indicate that she's affected by each situation. She suffers joys and sorrows;
The disapproval and neglect from her father in verse one,
indications of abuse from an insecure brother in verse two,
rejection from relationships,
the loss of her best friend due to moving,
her father's death and what seems like neglect from God Himself,
her brother's marriage (which is a joy, by the way, not a sorrow ;) ),
and, finally, her own engagement.

God's there throughout it all, but (as is frustrating to many Christians going through a rough spot), it seems as though God is silent when she most needs Him to speak.